I'm sorry, you had to live with me. I'm sorry for your existence as a pet. I'm sorry that I haven't been a good guardian for you.You had no choice you were raised as a toy. And you were the nicest toy I've ever had.
I went through horrible times having you nearby. You saw me with people who changed all the time people who broke me. You saw me passing and coming back in a self-destruction cycle. I'm sorry that you were there with me.
I felt love and excitement about you I have warm memories of you helping me, but now every time my partner mentions our future together with lots of pet rats I'm sorry.